Letting Go

Photo courtesy of Google.

Staring into the pieces of my broken heart,

I tried to piece them together but they keep falling apart,

I did not collect myself quick enough, I couldn't care less,

The cold crept in quickly, within me it infests,

I was lost, a soul afloat without it's carrier,

Now whimpering in a corner, shivering like a lost terrier,

Drenched in cold sweat, crying 'till the hiccups came,

There is no glory in this, only a burning dull pain,

No more fake smiles that can cover up these cloudy eyes,

I could no longer pretend, the spirit within me slowly dies,

Drifted into the dark cold night from your once strong grasp,

I succumbed to this heartache, I'm flatten like a wasp,

No wings to carry me to the Heavens,

I couldn't find the first cloud nor the seventh,

Then a Mighty voice from up above startled me out of my stupor,

"Collect yourself. Stop crying him a river,"

"He is not worth your tears after all the pain he's caused."

Before I took the plunge, the voice made me pause.

I fell on my knees crying with tremendous fervor,

My faith came to me the last minute, my old friend, my life saver,

I kneeled for a long moment when realization suddenly struck,

We had sacrificed for each other so much but maybe this is just tough luck,

So I praised God for giving me a sign one last time,

For giving me a chance of redemption, a message so sublime,

I looked at his picture in my hand, I kissed it again like I always do,

I suppressed the pain, the sorrow and the bursting love within - if he only knew,

Then I made a vow to little 'ol me,

If it is written by God in the Heavens, if it was really meant to be,

Then one day it will happen, when our lives will be aglow,

We will not be in this same position then, we'll be away from this plateau,

But now there's only one way for this feelings of mine to flow,

It will go down below, I am letting him go.

I am letting him go...

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KTM introduced it's pink women-only coach on 28th April 2010

The normal Komuter. Photo courtesy of Google.

So, what do I think of the idea? Well, it's commendable to say the least. For someone who have experienced being sexually harassed in the Komuter train first-hand, this is probably one small way to try to protect women from experiencing what I had. What? Don't believe I was harassed? 

When I was back in college, I commute from Kajang to my college in PJ everyday. The people in the LRT from KL Sentral to Asia Jaya was not as packed or as horrible as the people in the KTM Komuter. Every morning, by 6.15am I have to be at the Komuter station or I will definitely be late for my 8am class. This is because (if you used the Komuter before, you'll know) sometimes the Komuter do not arrive at its stipulated time. So when its late, the crowd grows and when it arrives, everybody squeezes themselves in, trying to shrink a size if possible. When there's too many people around, you're bound to bump into a pervert or two who'd pinch your bum or slide their hands up and down your ass. A few times I managed to step on their foot with enough force to make them howl. 

But there was one time, when I was on my way to class, I managed to get a sit and sat next to an older man and I was too tired from burning the midnight oil that I didn't realize I dozed off. It may be just a few seconds or a few minutes after I nodded off that I felt somebody's elbow started pushing against the side of my breast a few times. I opened my eyes slowly and realized the man beside me was acting like he's asleep yet he's pushing quite strongly again and again at my breast. So what did I do? I jumped up and swung my bag at his head. Of course I did manage to let out some profanities in between and a few Malay guys on board took notice and started coming to my aid. The man was too embarrassed to defend himself. He kept on apologizing to me and when the train stopped at the next station, he got off.

So, do I think a women-only coach could help? Well, I think it can help reduce the number of girls who might experience the same thing as me. I know a large number of girls who are too afraid or ashamed to do anything when they are sexually harassed in public that the only thing they would do is get up and go somewhere else. Malay girls especially, they are just too shy to open their mouths. I do hope though that this is not just some short-term gimmick on KTM's part to cover up their weaknesses such as the very problematic schedule that never seem to be solved and coaches that are too old and seats that are too ruined but still being used. I think an improvement in the services by the KTM Komuter, an upgrade from some of the almost-falling-apart coaches and higher security could also reduce these unwanted problems such as sexual harassment from arising. 

I hope this newly introduced service from KTM is not just a half-baked idea that will be forgotten and left behind after 6 months or a year from now. Still, I appreciate the effort they've done. Now, we'll just have to wait and see if it's all worth it.

Read the news here.

P/S: I still haven't try this coach yet. They're only available for the Sentul-Pelabuhan Klang route. If they have for the Seremban-Rawang route, maybe I'll give it a try. So I suggest that KTM should also prepare for the Seremban-Rawang route too. Surely there are a large sum of women from this part of town that could use some safety precaution as well.

Kelly Clarkson ALL I EVER WANTED TOUR Live In Malaysia 2010 | Part 2

Stadium Bukit Jalil

What an awesomesauce concert!

Luckily my ears are fine now. I was afraid I would stay deaf permanently. Coz the fans are super duper loud! I don't have the lungs or the vocal chords to reach such deafening proportion. LOL! I was a little more laid-back at the concert. I do feel a little old now compared to my concert-going time few years ago. Oh, and there were kids as young as 7 years old at the concert, yelling and screaming at the top of their lungs. Wow.. My first concert was when I was 14!

So, I arrived at Bukit Jalil around 6pm from Berjaya Times Square where I picked up my ticket from a friend. I hang out for a drink first before walking to the stadium around 7.30pm. I entered the stadium around 7.40pm and heard Natalie from Hitz.fm's voice talking about the sponsors and how proud she is with the concert-goers. Went to my seat, which is at COMP C (ticket worth RM288) Block 114. Every seat have a Sembonia goody bag waiting.

RM288 left section

Jaclyn Victor

I was twittering as Natalie threw posters to the crowd (she can't throw so far.. LOL!) when an Arabic guy came next to me, ask if he can take photo with me, snapped a photo and then left for his seat at God knows where. I was left a little perplexed. LOL! Weird maximum. Then, as I continue twittering and replying text messages on my phone, Jaclyn Victor came out to sing a medley of short Malay songs from the 80's, 90's and present. Although I am not a very big fan, but I do agree she has got some strong vocals. So, I enjoyed it and even sang along to some of the songs like "Isabella" (eeei that's me!), "Janji Manismu", "Rahsia Pohon Cemara" and many more. I grew up to those songs, duh!

After about 15 minutes of continued singing, Natalie came out to introduce another opening act, Suki. I have no idea who she is. She's cute, I grant you that but the too-big, too-red wedding dress cum layered cake dress is a little too much for such a concert I think. She just sang one Malay song, which I can't quite make out some of the words before leaving us in anticipation for Kelly Clarkson.

Oh, that's Kelly Clarkson's car y'all. Coming into the stadium at the very last minute. Such an entrance!

I wish I had a better camera! 

When she came out and started singing, everybody can't seem to stop screaming. The girls at my back were loud, I tell you. The people at my row wasn't, sadly, coz most of them are probably reaching 40 years old! Including the fella sitting on my left who stole my Sembonia goody-bag. Blardiful old man!

The Miss Independent did not disappoint her fans. She was very energetic all throughout. Of course, not all of her songs are the jump-out-of-your-seat type but the ballads are nice too, lets you relax a little and collect your energy again for the next upbeat song. She sang most of her hits such as All I Ever Wanted, Miss Independent, Breakaway, Never Again, Behind These Hazel Eyes, Walk Away, Addicted, Gone and then she also coaxed the crowd to join her on her latest song I Want You, dividing the crowd into two parts and having us sing together. There were medleys too like the one I posted on my Part 1 blog post. She also covers songs by Kylie Minogue "Can't Get You Outta My Head", The Black Keys "Lies" and The White Stripes "Seven Nation Army". 

Then there's the awesome band and backup singers, the flashmob who sang HAPPY BIRTHDAY to her which she acknowledged, thanked and replied, "I made it, I'm 28," before saying how grateful she is to celebrate it in Malaysia. Already Gone was not the last song of the day but I already saw the same van appearing and parking next to the stage so I bet there's going to be one last song before it's done, which it turns out, I was right. After she finished with the song Without You, she picked up her shoes (she was barefoot by then), ran backstage and the van was off. Everybody was already out of their seats but everyone managed to turn to the van and wave goodbye to Kelly. Yup, she's got amazing fans here.

The management did not allow video recording. They come up with their torchlights to you and tell you "No Recording" in that monotonous voice. It sucks coz what's a good concert if you can't record at least a song or two to remember by, right? Oh, but the last one, I did record coz everybody was already so hot and sweaty they just had to get out of their seats and jump. LOL!

 

So, did I enjoy the concert? My retired concert-going body was too hot and a little dizzy but what I can say is, the excitement, the anticipation and the warm welcome Malaysia gave Kelly Clarkson is a one exceptional experience!