Don't Let This Be The Last Goodbye

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Leaving you my love, was never an option,

Yet to let you succeed there is no other solution,

So I let you go for a while, accepting your reasons,

My heart filled with stones, my mind with illusions,

But my love for you is strong, so is my determination,

I pause - to allow you some grace and to allow me absolution.

I looked at my reflection, too many mistakes done,

My selfishness, my stubbornness had acquired me none,

Did I messed it up too much that I lost my One?

Why is it so dark here? Where is my sun?

Please don't tell me it's gone before it even begun,

Oh dear this burden in my heart, it weighs a ton.

For all my mistakes, I sadly accept this penance,

I will have to endure those days of your cool absence,

I would have to put up a face, a masked appearance,

I will keep my promise to you, I will keep a clear conscience,

Because I know I'll have you back, there will be no more distance,

Back home to me, always here for you, waiting, patience.

You told me to never let you go, that one fateful night,

So I am not going to do so; not without a proper fight,

Because you're the only one for me, you're my shining knight,

Not having you by my side as always feels not right,

So I vowed this time right now, out of contrite,

When I'm done you won't recognize the old me and that is my plight.

Now I only ask for a little favor,

Please don't let this be an insignificant endeavor,

Don't let go of what we have so easily,

I pray for this, I pray for you and to the Almighty,

To have you back next to me, teasing me with your charms,

And help me pick up the pieces of my heart again;

Before giving that familiar kiss on my forehead and wrapping me in your arms.

For you I would do everything, I would fly, I would die.

Just please don't let this be the last goodbye.

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Saw my Mad Hatter at last!

Just got back from watching Alice In Wonderland at The Gardens, MidValley this evening. My brothers and I had been waiting to catch this movie since we first saw the trailer last year. But time hadn't been very friendly to us, so we had to make do and watch it after a few days of it's first day opening in Malaysia. Still, it doesn't matter. I got to see my Mad Hatter and I think he's fabulous. I always think Johnny Depp is fabulous.

Opps, don't tell B-bunz I said that. Shhhh..

B-bunz couldn't follow us because he had a prior engagement and some paperwork. It's a little sad that I had to sit by myself in the two large seats. However, it was compensated because I could actually lean to the side and put my legs up on the seat next to me. Have you been in the Premier Cinemas in Signature, The Gardens? If you have, you'll know how big the seats are. I pushed back the divider in between the two seats because there were no one beside me and there I was, with my legs on the seat next to mine as I watch the big screen. LOL! I feel just at home. And since I was sitting in the middle row, I had no disturbances or people walking right in front of me. 

Still, the whole day was a long one... 

Early in the morning, after B-bunz dropped me home, I had to bring one of my cats to the vet. Our cat, Baby, had not been eating much and is not passing solids. He is also isolating himself from the other cats when he's usually more friendly and vigorous. We suspected he is ill or he had eaten something wrong. One of his favourite past time is to chase after mice or rats behind our house. So, he could've gotten infected with bacterias from the rats or he could've bitten a poisoned rat and have some traces of poison in his blood system.

Our vet gave us some medication which we would have to administer for this one whole week and monitor his feeding habits. Baby is a very friendly cat and although he's a little stubborn and would try his best to get out of the house when we keep him in, he would always come back to us in the evening for food and some lovin'. So we hope he'll be well soon.

It was a tiring day for me not only because I was running here and there to get things done but also because of the hot weather. It is too bright these days. I see there are no clouds in the sky at all. And not to mention, on the ground, more trees are being cut down to make way to one more project of apartments and another project of shops. The housing area nearby mine is just starting another building project and I admit, there is a significant change of temperature once they cleared all the trees. I can't stay outside very much these days. I feel faint from the heat and the brightness. I usually had no problem with Malaysia's hot and humid weather. But now, my body can't seem to handle it anymore.

Guys, please save the world. Preserve mother nature. All this heat is really not good for our bodies, our health and it will take a toll on our lifespan too.

When 2 Become 1

For you and I, when we're attracted to someone - be it mentally, physically or just plain sexually - we would zoom in on that person and forget about anybody else while we focus on our love interest. After a period of courting, that's when both the couples would proceed to make a decision to get married (or not) so that you can continue the human need for procreation. 

Love. Some people are so in love with each other they seem to be fused together. They seem to be able to read each other's minds. One don't need to finish a sentence because the other will finish it. But then again, how close is close? You can only seem to be "fused" together but you're not, well, literally fused into 1 right? But today, I would like to write about something I think is really cool. Something most of you probably didn't know, and honestly I didn't too until I read it in another person's blog.

Anglerfish

Anglerfish are the members of the order Lophiiformes which can be found in both the deep sea and continental shelf. The ones that live in open water are more laterally compressed while the ones living in bottom-dwelling fishes are more dorsoventrally compressed with large upwards pointing mouths (like the photo above).

Okay, that is a one ugly mother. And I call it a "mother" because it is a female. All types of Anglerfish that you can find in the sea that looks pretty much like the above are females. So, you ask me, where have all the males gone? Or is this type of fish asexual? Well, not exactly. And here's the cool part.

The deep sea Anglerfish males usually mature soon after metamorphosis whereas the females takes longer. One estimates that there are about 15 to 30 ripe males to every female, probably due to the difficulty in finding mates in the enormous sea. The males are also smaller in size compared to the females for example females of the Genus Gigantactis can grow to 40cm in length and its male only grow to 2cm. 

When male Anglerfishes were born, their only role was to search out for a female (how romantic is that?). The males have no bioluminescent lure, they have larger eyes which probably is to spot the female's lure and have much larger olfactory organ in front of their eyes. They have high sensitivity to the female's pheromones and can search for the females for miles even. The reason for that is because due to their small size, they are highly dependent on the females for safety.

Now once a male Anglerfish locates a female, the small male attaches himself to her by biting into her belly. After a few days, his teeth and jaw recedes, his skin fuses with the female's and their blood systems merge. Everything about the male regresses except for the one important internal organ which is its large testis. The female now do not have to worry because she is guaranteed with supply of sperms for when she's ready to reproduce while the male is now taken care of for life. Now due to the large size of the female in comparison to the male and also because of surviving needs, a female Anglerfish may have more than one male attached to her.

Finding Nemo

So, do you find it cool? I do. And if you need to understand more on the mating process, do view this video.