Emo Mode

Have you ever felt so lost at times? Then add that with spiritual pressure from assholes around you makes you even more lost. Have you sometimes feel like wishing all those clowns to hell? Some people just can't see you happy right? And because of their meddling, you end up ruining what's beautiful in your life.

Complaining will not take you anywhere if you're not perfect yourself. Instead of always wanting perfection in others, ask if you're perfect enough yourself. Then work out your strengths with the other person's weaknesses and let the other person keep your weaknesses hidden with their own strengths. Complimenting each other works both ways, you know. Don't always put the blame on others when sometimes you should also accept that you're at fault. Coz if you blame others ALL the time, you'll end up looking like a total prick, just like that person you hate so much.

OK, on a different note, although I know Rihanna haven't released the original music video to this song, I just can't stop listening to it and relating to the lyrics. So, I hope you like this song like I do and read between the lines.

Love The Way You Lie Part II Lyrics :

On the first page of our story, the future seems so bright.
And this thing turned out so evil, I don’t know why I’m still surprised.
Even angels have their wicked schemes and you take death to new extremes.
But you’ll always be my hero, even though you lost your mind.

[Chorus]

Just gonna stand there and watch me burn,
But that’s alright because I like the way it hurts.
Just gonna stand there and hear me cry,
But that’s alright because I love the way you lie, I love the way you lie.
I love the way you lie.

Now this gravel in our voices, glass is shattered from the fight.
In this tug of war, you’ll always win, even when I’m right.
Cause you feed me fables from your hand,
With violet words and empty threats and
It’s sick that all these battles are what keeps me satisfied.

[Chorus] x1 

So maybe I’m a masochist
I try to run but I don’t wanna ever leave.
Til the walls are goin’ up in smoke with all our memories.

[Eminem]
This morning, you wake, a sunray hits your face
smeared makeup as we lay in the wake of destruction
hush baby, speak softly, tell me I’ll be sorry that you
pushed me into the coffee table last night so I can push you off me
try and touch me so I can scream at you not to touch me
run out the room and I’ll follow you like a lost puppy
baby, without you, I’m nothing, I’m so lost, hug me
then tell me how ugly I am, but that you’ll always love me
then after that, shove me, in the aftermath of the
destructive path that we’re on, two psychopaths but we
know that no matter how many knives we put in each other’s backs
that we’ll have each other’s backs, ’cause we’re that lucky
together, we move mountains, let’s not make mountains out of molehills,
you hit me twice, yeah, but who’s countin’
I may have hit you three times, I’m startin’ to lose count
but together, we’ll live forever, we found the youth fountain
our love is crazy, we’re nuts, but I refused counselin’
this house is too huge, if you move out I’ll burn all two thousand
square feet of it to the ground, ain’t shit you can do about it
with you I’m in my f–kin’ mind, without you, I’m out it.

[Chorus] x1

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SHEMAH

Just the three of us

Do you hang out with your siblings often? Are you close to your brothers/sisters?

My brothers and I are real close and we share our stories, frustrations, happiness and everything in between together. Honestly, I am quite the controlling big sister, but that's what big sisters do right, we control our younger siblings so that they don't make the same mistakes we did. We don't let them jump into the well and drown themselves. We discuss, bring our younger brothers and sisters together and advice them on what's good or not. However, we also should let them find their own footing in the world, so even though we are protective of our siblings, we should also let them be and learn from their experiences. Hmm, I guess that's just how I perceive the job of being the big sister. I don't know about other big sisters/brothers though.

When we were younger, my brothers have always been the bully and I'm the bullied. I might be older than them, but when two boys join forces, I am usually sandwiched in the middle. There are times, when we quarrel and I got my sharp devil horns out, I'll go screaming like some maniac and they'll back down. So as you can see, our relationship is a give-and-take since the very beginning of our lives.

Yesterday, I was feeling down. Something happened in the family that made me wonder a few things. So, my brothers came and tried to cheer me up, by asking me out bowling. I knew they weren't so up to it but since I was looking glum and my eyes were puffy from crying, I guess they thought the best thing to do is to divert my attention to something else. RM47 later (6 games and three pairs of bowling shoes), I was laughing and smacking their hands with joy.

I won the second round. LOL!

It had been almost two years since the last time we went bowling. So, my right arm is a little sore at the moment. Not to mention I broke three nails because of the bowling ball. Damn. 

But all in all, it was a lot of fun. I am grateful for my brothers - even after all the bickering and quarreling when we were younger - have grown up to be two matured and understanding young men. There is no question where my loyalty lies. No matter what happens, I will be the first to be there for them.

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LADYJAVA

Crushing Bunnies for Money!

Remember my last post about this woman who sit on bunnies and crush them to death? Apparently, after a "human flesh" search is done - which according to the Chinese internet users, it is the use of individual networks to uncover the real identity of a person - the woman is found and is actually a nurse working at a hospital in the northwestern province of Heilongjiang.

Her name, is Huang Xiaoxiao.

It is said that she is paid by a group of "crush fetishists" to record those horrifying videos. Huang Xiaoxiao informed that this group pays her from 100 yuan (USD15) for crushing fruits until 200-300 yuan for other small animals and up to 400 yuan for rabbits. This girl said that she had done a few videos for the group and has been paid accordingly. It looks like this same group might also be responsible for the video that came out in 2006 of a woman crushing puppies to death with her stiletto heels.

These sad pathetic little psychotic women, doing all this for MONEY?? And a meagre amount for that matter! WTF?!

How much does she make with her pay as a nurse? Is it so little that she had to resort to killing animals to live? To think that nurses are responsible to care for you just like doctors are and that this same woman is responsible for the murders of all those innocent animals is mind boggling! You know, at this point, I think making money as a prostitute is so much respectable than making money killing animals. And for what? Just to satisfy the fetish of other equally sad pathetic psychotic aliens on this planet??

OMG, I am so angry. I AM SO ANGRY recalling how these girls can giggle and laugh while they sit on those poor bunnies just to get 400 yuan! That's only USD60! Oh gosh, if only I have the power to blow these crazy assholes with my mind with some Jedi-like powers, I would just blow up all these crazy fetishists  right now.  

The worst part is when the woman responsible of killing these bunnies can actually defend her actions first before recording an apology for her actions. Seriously, throw her apologies into the drain. If you don't think you fall under the "I'm a Moron" category, then you know her apologies are worthless. She's going to do this again and again and again even if she's just paid USD60. To know that she would accept blood money like that, she is as psychotic as all these fetishists.

Put her in jail. Put those who had done the same thing she did behind bars too. Speak up for these innocent animals since they can't do it for themselves!

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J. LOVE